people often ask, where do i get my inspiration from? well, it comes from all sorts of places, but sometimes, its from emotions that i need to channel somewhere - sort of like an artist does with a canvas…. my soap is my escape, and my canvas. i can put all of my energy into it - and feel i have brought it to life.
the bunny bar, is a very special bar to me. it was created in loving memory of my special special girl, nina. the ingredient list on this bar should only say one thing : love. because that is surely what went into making it. i thought about my nina the entire time i was making it.
i think animals are special … and for some reason, some are brought into our lives that form a bond that is so strong, and so unlike any other - no matter how many animals we’ve had in our life.. one just makes a mark you cannot deny, will never forget, and can never be replaced. nina was my special one.
our bond was instant. she fastened herself to my side from day one and my side didnt feel right without her there. she was so so smart, so funny, so intuitive. its like she was on her own little mission to be the best thing in my life, at least, i think thats what she thought, because thats certainly how she acted. i didnt even have to train her - i always said, its like she trained herself, just by observing and knowing me so well. all she ever wanted to do was make me happy … she never needed a leash, she never destroyed a toy, or any of our personal belongings, she didnt have accidents in the house, i mean this girl would let her bladder burst before she would ever. she was amazing. she listened to everything, knew everything, she was simply the best.dog.ever.
oh my gosh and did she make me laugh. she made up her own little games and had so many of her own funny little unique to her things - i seriously think she thought she was human. she would sit at the table with us, and talk to us… she talked a lot actually :) she hopped on her hind legs as if to walk side by side with her humans, like they do. one of my favorite things she did, was play hide and seek. eeeeeevery day when i would come home… she would run and hide behind a WHITE curtain.. lol and i could see her tail wagging moving the curtain.. but until i said ” where is mmmmmy little doggie aaaaaaaatttt’ she would stay there as if i didnt see her :D then she would come darting out and flop onto her back at my feet and wait for a high five and a belly rub.
she loved walks, car rides were her favorite….she yipped and squealed the whole way.. no matter where were were going or how long it took to get there. this past summer she spent a lot of time on a farm with me - doing things shed never done before, she would do anything….and she did them as if shed been doing it her whole life…. and she was so happy doing it.. as long as she was with me. riding in a kubota over acres of fields picking rocks, ride on a4wheeler,pick pumpkins with me and ride on the big pumpkin wagon, long muddy walks in the woods..( although not new to her, she always loved loved doing that) she would run all around and then look back as if to say ” hey, you ok back there? c’mon… look at all this stuff!!!!” …….she would never get far enough away to be out of sight, she always had to make sure we were ok.
she established herself as my protector very early on, too - i loved that about her. she would be nasty if she felt i was in any harm… and i was ok with that. she was so loyal, so obedient, so intelligent. im telling you, it was all her. she came into my life that way and only got better. literally until her last moments. even just two days before she passed, she woke me by nudging me over and over until i woke…as i was having a nightmare and she knew it. if i left home without her - my daughter would often call ” mom, please come home… nina is just laying at the door whining.. waiting for you, she wont move” part of me thinks its because she just wanted me home with her, but part of me thinks she worried who would protect me without her there…. thats kinda how i feel now, like i cant move….. like im just waiting for her to be back. but i bet you my life, she is sat at the gates and will not move until i get there.
she fell very ill this past november, very suddenly. it was up and down for months, until her suffering came to an end mid-january. although i knew she was very sick, and tried hard to prepare myself for life without her, i still just cannot believe it. it is not the same. it will never be the same. nina grew my heart when she came into my life. She made a huge space for herself in it that will never be filled with anything but her. its her space. and it will forever belong to her. im so so lucky to have been her human.
so why grapefruit for the bunny bar? it just so happened to be one of her favorite treats. she and i - would sit and eat pink grapefruit together. i know, right? what dog likes pink grapefruit? im telling you….. she was special. she was far from just any other ” dog”. she was everything good, she was SO SO happy. she was amazing. she was awesome. she was mine.
my nina, my girl.